Day 4

So I've been reading fat acceptance blogs obsessively since I started this project. I know that obesity has been linked to several health problems. I know that several obese and overweight members of my family don't make wise food choices and/or exercise.

But here's my story. Since I was about 14, I have weighed what I weigh now (give or take 5-7 pounds.) According to my BMI, I should be fifteen to twenty pounds less. Easily. But I have never weighed that little. Even when I was on Adkins, adjusting to high school, experiencing complete misery in marching band, and running two miles a day. Even when I was interning in Mexico, doing manual labor on a daily basis, recovering from a depression, and later mourning the death of my great-grandmother. For the record, I lost about 10 pounds both those times, making me still technically overweight. So for me at least, I'm calling B.S. on BMI.

If I lose ten pounds, awesome. But I'm changing my own perspective. This is about accepting my body and doing right by it. By my sister's wedding, I will look banging, because I'll be confident and toned. Maybe I will have lost some weight, and it will be great if I have. But I'm not wasting any more of my life (or at least this week) wringing my hands, praying to the Great God of BMI to please, please let me be a normal weight. Because I'm over it. The end.

That all said, I'm still going to track my eating and my exercise in order to make sure I am making healthy choices. I mean, I thought I was doing ok, water-wise and fruit/veg wise, but the last couple of days alone have shown that's not always the case. And that's when I was consciously thinking about what I was putting into my body. Yikes.

Midnight snack (because I was so hungry I couldn't read or sleep!)

Apple w/lots of peanut butter

1 slice of non-dyed American cheese*

*I am convinced that the lack of artificial coloring makes this an alright choice

Breakfast

Two pieces of wheat toast w/peanut butter and banana

Tea

Lunch

Naked juice (Strawberry/Banana)

Pretzels

Coffee w/non-fat and Splenda

Dinner

Salad

Rice and black beans

Mixed Lettuce

Tomato (not v. much though)

Salsa

Cheddar cheese

Water-2 big glasses

No workout, although I did a 30 minute power walk to class. Has to count for something, right?

Self-check

Fruit/Veg-6??

Hydrate yourself, giiirrrll.